Filled with much thoughts.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

am i sick that y i feel so vulnerable?

i really feel like breaking down and cry out loud..

but i don't find my tears...

am i numb?

or i just simply getting used to it?

12:02 AM

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

why must you torture me like this.

send this kind of msg also will send wrong people...

he wrote"nights baby"

i don't know who is he sending to.

but i hope its me.

but deep down i know this kind of good things wont happen on me...

haizz, it will only add on to my pain..

9:18 PM

Monday, January 24, 2011

just the thoughts of you irritates me...

12:18 AM

Sunday, January 16, 2011

i don't know how i can face you later.

i will force out a smile, but it wont be genuine.

its killing me inside.

and you are the only antidote.

11:11 PM

Thursday, January 13, 2011

it doesn't matter already.

like that also very happy.

i'm just afraid, the happier i get, the emptiness will be more.

11:12 PM

Saturday, November 27, 2010

我不想当小妹.

10:21 AM

Friday, November 26, 2010

*HEARTBEAT POUNDING X1000 TIMES*

the day finally came, i'm going to meet him later alone.
dunno how many times i wish this kind of thing to happen but how it came, i wish it can be other day.
I'm not prepared! I'm scared! I'm nervous! I'm happy!
yesterday, i'm damn happy.
but after hearing that maggie is not going home tonight, i dunno why i will link to she is together with keith overnight at his place, then in the morning they will go for breakfast then later when he come and pick me up, i will see maggie in his car and they told me they are together!

OH MAN! I wish i'm thinking too much! what if it really happen? i think i will breakdown lor.
serious. I'm nervous now not because im meeting him later but scare i will see maggie in his car!
damn it...
crossed finger arrrrrrr.....

the plan later is, we will meet and go to shop for red wine.
then we will proceed to punggol marina to meet suzie and joey and the rest.
so i will have 1 hour to be alone with him.
that should be happy about right? but all these negative thoughts kept popping up in my mind.
arrgghh this is so torturing!

9:25 PM