Filled with much thoughts.

sometimes, no.
now i really, seriously feels that i'm very underpaid and overworked.

with that amount of money, i have to slog like cow and suffer like that. I never really sit down and think about the amount of tasks that was given to me, what i am thinking is since i'm given this task, i might well do it and do it with my best. that's what i always tell myself at work. in school, you can slack, copy or whatever. but i'm working now, everything is different. the responsibility is with me now, do it or fail it. it's just a line, cross the line and you are done. no income but lots of commitments.

since i've already started writing, let's see how much work i have to do a day.
listen, it's a day only.

1) initiate billings for signed contract
- i'll have to save and rename the file, print it out, file.
- raise billings to chengdu side for them to raise SIR, i must confirm that i've have every single details ready and correct.
- verify the project code.
- keep track of the forever increasing contracts that cost 100 over millions of dollars. how can they depend on me to bill such a big amount. so now you know, if i raise it incorrectly, how much money will be lost. in the end, die one also me.

2) Raise PR to purchases
- i think they are too rich, i can raise alot of items a day. 8 mobile phones, 15 panasonic phones, hard disk, singtel mobile broadbands, servers.

3) Raise PR to pay human resource agency
- i dunno why, N is such a big company and with the support of S, they can't even afford to employ a perm or direct con or sub con staff under them? I've about 50 external contracts staff under us. Every month without fail i have to raise 50 PR for these people. damn it la. i still must keep track of it, follow up with the PR because purchasing side wont tell me when to tell them to do GR. imagine i'm already damn busy i still have to go into SAP system to check one by one. Get signatory approval from different PM, scanned it, raised already still have to pass to Finance those original invoices myself. if they reject my PR, i still have to do it all over again. by the time, the payment is delayed, the stupid agency will call and chase after it. super irritating especially those stupid Ind fuckers.

do you think that it? NO! i still have to raise PR for these and that.

4) i dunno why i will land in this situation, i tell myself that i will not step into banking industry. but in the end, i'm supporting IT banking like wth! they got this stupid systems that all people doing the project will have to sign the agreement and i must prepare the agreement again. like i one person have to let around 150 people to sign. when they come in, they must sign, some PM wont even inform when there's new hire that's the worst. how to keep track when i dun even know there's new entry. never mind, that's not the worst part. i must still let chengdu, suzhou, hk and shanghai staff to sign the agreement. NB, i ask HR they tell me a very general answer. Like i ask" does ODC (oversea development centre) staff doing this project have to sign the agreement? you know what they replied? " for what i know, all staff doing this project have to sign" i know! but they are oversea so i want to know if they need to sign?! if they sign, how can i get the original copy where HR wants it! can't they reply yes? NB.

5) i also have to keep track of new entry/exit, when they join the group, i'll have to prepare the necessary documents. ask them to fill up their personal particulars, brief them about what is the things to rmb in our team. CB.

6) they submit resignation/Mc/leave also must tell me, i have to keep track.

7) travel claims
- still must scan and photocopy then raise for billing. then bill customers.

8) still must help them go out buy thumbdrive and dvd etc. machiam like maid

9) have to help them to apply for pass to customer site, as our customer site is a highly secured area just like my office, i have to get their info and photos and have to send to them to apply. done le i still have to collect and give it to them one by one.

10) onebank id
- this is the most NB one, the girl suppose to do try to push it to me. like she never sit beside me and see the job that i have to do a day. even the intern behind me say why your work like never ending. can you go back by 6pm? i tell you, i even have to stay till 11.30pm sometimes also can't finish. you know why, when i am trying to do my work, people will come and ask. Huishan why the printer cannot print, where is the fax, how to scan, this and that. i have to walk away and attend to their needs before coming back to do mine. So now i'm going to ask, who is going to attend to my needs! CB.

11) i have to compile reports every first 3 days of the week. chase reports from those managers and nb always give me last min and boss wants it by that time. end up i get scolded because she spot mistakes. how could i know when is your UAT SIT nabei. how could i know your project got go red anot.

12) i have to help them book flight whenever they are going for business trip, come back still must remind them to give me the reciepts so that they can claim. they want to give me late, if too late cannot claim who knows they might even blame you!

13) i have to keep track of the records everyday. people wants to loan software, hardwares, batteries, panansonic phone, production support phones, all come to me. i think i'm really super women. so many things to keep track on, sometimes i'm wondering why i can cope till 1 and a half year.

14) sometimes i have to ask for quotation if they want to purchase things then still must help them to raise pr and chase after purchasing. wtf.

15) now we are having downsizing, i still must tell them what to do how to keep look out for them. answer to their stupid needs. really i think i treat them too good already.

16) never mind, people come back from overseas buy snacks. hao xin want to treat people so put at the empty cubicle infront of me, eat le wont throw away the wrapper and box, even i put notice there. you can still see this kind of things happening. i dunno they are abnn or what no sense of cleaniness and tidyness. all know how to eat but dunno how to wipe their mouth. later got ants then it will start crawling to my desk then all of you will die.

17) ok, boss want projector to be mount onto the wall, building management guy ask if boss can grant them access to our office as vendor can only come on weekend. boss dont want and ask me if i can come down on sat so out of goodwill, i am ok. nabei weekends office no air con so stuffy. the BM guy told me he will come down but in the end didnt. i have to sit there like a fool waiting for the vendor to finish installing. i burned my sat, i sat there from 10am to 3pm. fuck. i am so angry with the BM guy and msged him and scolded him. pls la, im only a project admin, i have to do so many shit job for them.

im like from finance, purchasing, project office, hr, admin, all rounder with the pathetic pay.
michell they all got more pay than me i think also no need to do so many things lor.

18) i still have to keep track of the mobile broad, transponder, the passes, the phones the software the license the asset of the project, damn.

i think i dun want to continue already. too angry to continue.

i just want to end off with a vugalrity. NABEI!

9:16 AM