Filled with much thoughts.

A quick update.

Same old routine everyday; work eat sleep work eat sleep.

I MISS MY GOOD OLD DAYSSS WHEN I HAVE THE TIME TO DO WHAT EVER THINGS I WANT TO DO. SKIP SCHOOL WHEN I WANT TO AND I MISS EXAM STRESS AND LESSER POLICTICS BETWEEN PEOPLE.

I hate this kind of feeling, when i can't bring myself to trust anyone and tend to watch my back everytime. It's not that they are not good, just that you will never know what will happen and i have heard alot of advise and stories. I have seen some too. The guard there is quite nice thou. It's part of growing up isn't it. I'll used to it, right?

"Old is not scary but the process of growing old is"
i fully feel this sentence.

And i become very lazy. Lazy as in i can't find the energy to go out to have fun after work. I long to go home whenever i am off work. I even stayed at home during the weekends and i feel so sastified about it haa. Home is what i look forward to everyday. Thou sleep is very much needed, i just dont want to sleep cause i think sleeping is a waste of my life. So i give myself up to 1am everyday and i just simply dozed off once i lie on my bed. Occasionally, i will just dozed off with my spec on and my laptop on. My lovely sister will then help me to remove my spec and keep my laptop. I can feel it but im too tired to react. Life is not tough, in fact to have something to do during work makes me happy. At least im not idling around.

Waking up every morning is still a torture to me but it's definitely getting better. Took 45 to work. Will pass by nyp every morning. Looking at the school and the students makes me envy them soo soooo sooo much. How i wish i can be a student again. I know even if i go uni now i will graduate too and have to work. Work is part of human life isn't? We are born to work, just for the sake of money, should i laugh or cry. Got money we laugh, no money we cry, so fuck that money.

I miss all my friends, i really do. I wanted to talk to all of them, reply their message, joke with them, go out like we used to but simply can't find that energy to do it. It's the mental, very mentally tired not physically. Tell me what to do, like what i've said earlier, i will get used to it one right?

Wellll, friends if i reply your msg late or i even forgot about it. Please forgive me, because i am really busy at work and being in the stage of learning and understanding makes me even busy cause everytime im being taught new things and trust me, there's loads to learn. Give me time, i will find you all when i settle down.

I REALLY MISS YOU ALL.

And, simple things like watching tv, surf the net, hit the gym, eat a home cooked meal, meet up with friends for chilling session seems so difficult now. I'm craving for all of it, i'm craving for chalets, bbq and gathering. I don't care who i gather with now i just want a feel of my old days again. I believe i will, like i say, let me settle down first and i will find back my life.

Im half asleep while typing this, i foresee alot of grammers, vocabs, misphrase of sentence. I dont really care cause i know you will know what im saying if you know me right? hahaha.

I'm trying to break my friends and my own record in bejeweled Blitz lately. But i cant seems to score. Sacrificing my sleep for it, quite dumb but who cares, bejewled is my new love for the time being, till i get bored.

ok see you and take care!
buddy, see you when your exam finish.
mich kaini alvin edwin slivester zhicai deming xinyuan bear, who ever came. look forward to see you at our mini gathering at chomp X 2 on friday which is today.
See the rest of you at grad.
My kakis some other day.
My YEC buddies, see you all at the kayaking/dragonboat championship and our one star kayaking course.

LOVE YOU AND LOVE YOURSELF K!

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