Filled with much thoughts.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

I suddenly recalled what i've said to someone a few weeks ago, while i'm stoning.
I super regretted it and seriously, i think i speak without using my brain.
How can i say that, even i'm seriously just only joking to her.
Regrets.

ARGHHH!!

5:48 AM

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Sometimes when we touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you

And I choke on my reply

I'd rather hurt you honestly

Than mislead you with a lie

And who am I to judge you

On what you say or do?

I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy

Leaves me battling with my pride

But through the insecurity

Some tenderness survives

I'm just another writer

Still trapped within my truth

A hesitant prize fighter

Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you

And drive you to your knees

At times I'd like to break through

And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you

And I know how hard you've tried

I've watched while love commands you

And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters

Still searching for a friend

A brother or a sister

But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch

The honesty's too much

And I have to close my eyes and hide

I wanna hold you til I die

Til we both break down and cry

I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

I'm currently stuck with this song, because of the voice.

9:14 AM

Monday, January 28, 2008

went to celebrate millie birthday straight after school, which is like around 9pm. They headed down to bishan sakae first. i meet them after the test. After i reached, we went for deserts at swensen!

The earthquakes is simply delicious, or maybe is i hungry already. HAHA. Took some photos. Let me introduce.

First row - ice cream, millie, me.

second row - millie and shuhui, the others, me and shuhui.

three row - me and jimmy, me and millie, me and "god mum".

willie - not in the picture. lol. i didnt post the one i took with him cause not nice. HA

Willie's parent is also there. When i was walking towards sakae. i saw them and i was shocked.

aiya should have take the picture of the lovely dovey couple. shuhui and willie. Tsk. lol.

The others head home and millie shuhui and i went for girls talk. supposingly going to play swing around millie house, but then there's no swing already. So we go to one of the pavillion to sit. After that millie suggest that we can go to one of the mac in hougang. I think around 639 i think. Went there for a while then me and shuhui cab home. We are so tired. But we have fun!

9:58 AM

Saturday, January 26, 2008

207 days to my adulthood.
206 days to see whether the wishes came true.
2oo days to save money.
19 days to the most terrifying day.

HAHA.

very very random.

11:56 PM

Its so fun to watch cartoons with my father.
we watch mario and looney tunes together at 2am in the morning

LOL!

1:56 AM

Friday, January 25, 2008

went for a walk at bugis today, bought one shoe and its in white. my sister said white is the last color i should think of. lol. wanted to bought a new cap as i saw someone with the same cap as me. omg! i swear i'll never wear that again, promise. walk around and saw nothing hot. i think hereen have it but i'm just to lazy to go over. shall get it next time.

sorry ar, i just don't know how to react when i see you. paiseh paiseh.

7:47 AM

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Am not a pass time machine.

I'm a human.

8:29 PM

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Hi there!
Was really busy these few days. Was rushing projects like mad. C# project finally cleared, left the website project. Like yesterday, we have been rushing the project after lsc class ends. But before all the hard work, we have decided to go for lunch first. Xinyuan suggested bak ku teh. I'm not very keen in the first place but still went with them. I can tell you, i didnt make a waste trip because its simply delicious. I hate food that got herbs taste, but this store dun use herbs to boil their soup so that why i'm enjoying it. other than that, we still order the pig trotters, dough stick and oyster egg. Yummy!

After lunch, we began our project in school. It take a long time for us to solve a problem in the website. At first we did at blk L. but the lab person closing the lab at 7. So we moved to the other lab that close at 9. By the time its already 9.10pm. We all were hungry. So we went to our school mac to settle our dinner. After that we went to the bench at blk m to continue doing. At around 11pm, the guard came and chase us out of the school. But, we still got alot to go. So i suggested we meet out and do together, at least we can discuss during the night and wont doze off so easily. Thus, all of us rush home to take our stuff, bathed and cab to bear's house.

At around 3am, we were all very very tired. But our shopping cart and other stuff still cant work. That's very demoralising. We try so hard but it still cant work. We continue doing throughout the night. By 6am, i cant take it anymore and doze off at the sofa. Woke up at 7 in a shock. Continue checking and bathed to prepare for school. Just when i finish bathing and we are preparing to leave the house, we recieve a new. Its a good news and a bad one. Our teacher relative passed away, presentation cancelled, postpone to next week. WA LAO. we rush the whole night and almost died of fatigue. But then also not the teacher fault i noe. Just that whole night of hard work like not come to a use. But then lucky we still got time to finish the project.

We went for breakfast instead. PRATA! After breakfast, all went home to sleep. It was a tired tired day.

When i wake up, its already 7pm. Time for dinner. Mummy bought the ingredient for making spaggetti. And i decided to cook it. There's minced meat and hotdog. LOL!
Does it look yummy, no? But it taste great. HAHA.

want to eat? i can cook for you if you want =D HAHA

there's a test tmr, but i'm still very tired.

And oh ya, i will be starting my attachment or fyp on the 3rd march. The first batch to go. I felt really sian. Cause i am still not prepared to go for attachment so fast. And i'm actually preparing to go genting during march. now cant already. Hope everything will go smoothly.

BYEBYE!

6:00 AM

Monday, January 21, 2008

IMAGINE......

if i don't study, i can be ....

kobi bryan's sister, kopi bryan

if not i can be.....
a rocker who have yellow hair and chest hair.

if else i can be.......

fat man!

COOL MAN!

delicate to those who are very stressful with their fyps, projects, exams or whatever.
hope it make you laugh, at my ugly face =)
winks.

6:29 AM

Sometimes love just ain't enough

Patti Smyth & Don Henley

I don't wanna lose you

I don't wanna use you

Just to have somebody by my side

And i don't wanna hate you

I don't wanna take you

But i don't one to be the one to cry

That don't really matter to anyone, anymore

But like a fool I keep losing my place

And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much

And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust

There's a reason why people don't stay where they are

Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now I could never change you

I don't wanna blame you

Baby you don't have to take the fall

Yes I may have hurt you

But I did not desert you

Maybe I just wanna have it all

It makes a sound like thunder

It makes me feel like rain

And like a fool who will never see the truth

I keep thinking something's gonna change

There's a danger in loving somebody too much

And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust

There's a reason why people don't stay where they are

Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
And there's no way home

When it's late at night and you're all alone

Are there things that you wanted to say

Do you feel me beside you in your bed

There beside you where I used to lay

And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much

And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.

There's a reason why people don't stay who they are

Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Enjoy.

6:09 AM

Friday, January 18, 2008

Yeah! i manage to wake up and reach school early today. All for the sake of that 5% attendance. They better give me back that 5% if not, heh heh heh. I shall hack into the system and add the attendance myself. HA! jus joking lah. Its project day today. But before squeezing my brain juice dry, i shall feed myself with my favourite food. POPIAH! my all time favourite. I can eat five rolls at one go lor, i got big stomach. Haha. After lunch, we went to the school cafe to look for zhicai they all. Raymond got the last two episode of Huang Jin Lu. Don't know what we are excited about, all went there to watch. There around 10 plus people standing infront of the laptop staring at the screen and making comments about the show. HAHA. The scene was spectacular, lol. Indeed, the last two episode is quite excited. Except for the ending, channel 8 show is always exciting in the beginning and the mid of the show, but when it comes to the ending part, they like ran out of ideas, anyhow anyhow the show ends already. The way kaijie died in the hotel was quite lame thou.

After the show, its finally time to work on our projects. By the time, its already around 1 plus. I have a quiz on 3pm! Leong sai cheong doesn't seems too happy today. His face like i own him money like that. After quiz, went back to the library and work on the program again. We work till around 4.50. There were some enquiries about the website, so alvin and me decided to look for mr cheong. Walk around the whole blk m and L but couldn't find him. In the end, we found him at the south canteen drinking tea with some lecturer. He ask us to find him again at 5.
Stayed at blk L till around 6 plus and the lab person chase us out because the room we are using is the FYP room. HA. No where to go, me and alvin went to sit at the benches outside the lecture hall. The wind is so strong there, its like freezing cold lah. Changed place in the end as the laptop battery is running low. We need power source! HA.

Both of us felt really hungry. We decided to eat MAC.! ha. no choice la. at that time, the school canteen all close already. So that poor boy had to go all the way to the mac canteen to buy food. Mcwings so delicious and juicy. HA. We both had mcspicy meal and two mcwings each. HAHA. See how hungry we are. I pick a movie in my laptop and we watch as we eat. LOL! Like the project dun need to do already like that. Enjoying the breeze and the show, good life ar. After dinner, wash up and continue with our project again. But soon we were both very tired and decided to go home after finishing some of the parts.

Don't know why yesterday suddenly feel much relax. Doesnt seems so restless anymore. Maybe its fate. but i'm thankful. Whatever it is, its not important anymore. It make me shake off all the useless load off my shoulder. Right now, i'm feeling damm relax and is ready to challenge the upcoming stress that will befall on me. I am strong, remember?
I become so relax that i could laugh and joke from the bottom of my heart. That feeling is great! I am relieve that i can recover before its too late. I have my life and i'm the one who is in control of it. I shall make the rest of my 2nd year a happy one. At least i have a tiny little bit of happy memories. That will be great isnt it.
No matter how difficult the project is, it feels great to be occupied. It make my life a hectic one but i'm loving it. Right now, I just hope everyone can be happy too. By letting go, it make me and others life easier, don't you think so. Hmm, great.

C-O-O-L-N-E-S-S. IS. THE. A.I.R.

2:55 AM

Thursday, January 17, 2008

didnt manage to go running.
was too tired and busy with projects.

lets just hope that this critical period will pass soon.
i know we can hang on because we have been through this kind of thing for almost 2 years.
so jia you everyone!

5:46 PM

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

oh my oh my, i'm in a deep trouble.

i screw up my sleeping routine.
Totally.

myheadisgoingtoexplode.

10:10 PM

Friday, January 11, 2008

I was looking around in my living room.
Then i saw my N level Design and Technology project.
I heard it calling me so i took it out of the cupboard.
I put in battery. To my surprise, its still working. Yeah!

I think the topic is TIME. That why i do a international time clock.

You can rotate it around to see the time of three different country from Japan, Thailand and Singapore. Its hollow, so you can slide open the top cover and put your little paper clips or other stuffs in. In the night when there is no light, you can on the two light bulbs. But its doesnt help much anyway. LOL! Put there to meet the citeria only.

Thinking of it, this clock had followed me 5 years already. How time files.

Its cool and i'm loving it.

11:50 PM

Attracting the wrong people.

Last time are those mid forties ang mo,
then now the african.

Yesterday was a shock.
But what i console myself is that i still have a little litle bit of market value. LOL!

I guess my target audiences is not in Singapore.
Someone sponsor me air tickets, i shall go oversea and find my target audience.
HA!
Joking.

I'm just so lazy to do the marketing report.

11:18 PM

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

I have just recieve the news that i have gotten into my first choice for the third year specialisation; Logistic.

I feel good today. Should treat myself better next time.
:)

9:46 PM

My dear cheryl, no matter what i will support you.
Don't frown, i want a BIG SMILE k.
Stay Happy =D

7:53 PM

i'm surprise that my passion is back so fast, haha.
Maybe its because i don't have much opportunity to talk to my close ones about my daily life and thoughts. Or maybe its because everytime i open my mouth, nothing came out right. There was once ppl told me, its only when you are not confident of yourself then you will stumble when you talk. Yea, maybe that's right.

So, i shall write ba.

I discovered that i cant talk in blk L lab, i feel that my voice is so loud. Sometimes when i aggitated or excited ar, i speak louder. I sound like i'm screaming man.
ok, the air con is back and i'm feeling freaking cold every lesson.

And, i'm having indigestion recently. Feel very uncomfortable after i eat.
I try to sleep very late at night. I will wait till i am very tired then sleep because of insomia. But whenever i lay on my bed, i became very alert and things will start running in my head. Finally when i fall asleep, i will get nightmares. When my nightmares is over, its time for me to wake up. What a hectic nightlife, haha.

In a few more weeks, it will be school holiday again. YEA!
But right now, project, exam, project, exam all the way.

I talk to my own reflection in the mirror today. A good way to sort things out. Try it!

ok, i shall end here. Bye!

4:30 AM

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Yea! Yea!
My internet connection is well again.
Have been fishing for wireless network these two days.
Heh Heh.

I have lost interest in blogging somehow.
Blog or not, it doesn't make a big difference right. HAHA
So, will not be coming here often.
See you again when my passion is back.
Love you!
=D

12:40 AM

Friday, January 04, 2008

Played basketball with my fellow friends in school yesterday. As it was a last min decision, i didnt bring the apropriate footwear along. My shoe is one size bigger as its was my sister's. As i chase after the ball, my shoe is coming out and i nearly fall but luckily, i didnt. But i sprain my leg a little. I felt pain but it didnt bother me much as i thought it wouldn't be a problem. Then i went for lecture. I sat down and i felt pain, its ok. I reached home and felt slightly more pain. Apply cream to it. Wake up this morning and felt more pain and its abit swollen. As i walked, it become even swollen but pain were less. My veins become tighter and i couldn't straighten my feet.
But more basketball game please :)

Meet xiu after school for lunch, bought a new pump =D

Clumsy, yes i am.

Lesson learn, don't ever wear a oversize shoe.

MC king is dead and i'm shocked.
Things are so hard to predict.
People can just passed away so suddenly.

4:09 AM

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

I almost get knock down by a car today.
For that moment, i thought i will be dead.

I am trying to cross the road. So when i am walking toward the pavement, i saw two cars.
One malaysia car and a singapore car. I saw the singapore car driver talking to the malaysia car driver. Then after awhile the m'sia car drive off. The s'pore car driver went inside the car.
I thought he will drive off. I mean logically if you don't drive off you will keep still, as he is already in the car for about 1min without starting the engine. So i went behind the car but still on the pavement, i saw no other car from the direction already, i went down to the road. Jus when i step down only, i heard engine sound and something near me. I looked to my left, wa lao, the car reversing lor. Why must wait till i want to cross the road then he reverse. of course, i am shocked. But still, i managed to avoid the car by jumping to my right. If not i sure kena the car. The stupid thing is, i still turn and apologise to the driver Haha.
The driver didnt do anything but drive off instead. :(

What a close shave, and what a reckless driver.

I thought i wish for a better 2008.
Its only the 2nd day of the year and this is happening.
HA.

9:18 PM

Sometimes, its not about what you see or hear.
Feel it with your heart.
You will be surprise with the outcome :)

6:31 AM