Sense of responsibility

omg. first day at whampoa was stressful.
no sales today.

what customer wants but we have

no size
no new design

how to do business without all these. one size/design only one piece.
then when customer ask for it, we have none. and they left the shop in disappointment.
theres also customers telling me, why dun have new stock de.

i also dunno how to answer them lo. i told them that the boss haven bring new stock to the stall.

then the heels also. no size.

i was like. what the hell. why always dun have this and that.

and i am the only one tending the shop. and when a customer come in, dunno why suddenly so come together.
then i almost cant cope.

and its kind of eerie. cause the shop is quite dark and its located under the blocks.
plus the air condition so cold.
its unlike those shopping malls. you still have other shop around.
and this shop have door..so ppl have to push the door to come in. its like one big room

cause its at level one. cockroaches alot. then when i wanted to go to the toilet, i saw one flying cockroaches
upside down on the floor. omg!
then i dun dare to go le..have to tahan.
cause its like shop houses. upstair got ppl live de.
then the girl who mother is the salon owner, beside us and live upside knock on my backdoor,
i asked myself issit noise or knock. so after she knock a few times then i go and open the door.
then the first thing i ask her is, " are you afraid of cockroaches?"
she said no. so i ask her to help me kill the cockroach in the toilet. wa she use water spray and the thing fly.
then she say she also abit scare. she ask me to say and went up to take baygon.

in the end. the cockroach die and she swept the thing outside.
i was still scare. i examine the place and faster do my business.
i asked her to wait outside..LOL
in case still got i can scream and ask for help ma.
wa the whole day i dun dare to go toilet. till i close shop then i faster go cause i cannot stand anymore.
eerie experience.

when i go to buy lunch, i had to make sure i lock everything.
and its the first time i need to close the shop be myself.
wa damm scare la..i had to check all the electricity off. door locked, backdoor locked, atm machine log off. eveything.
its the first time i feels that all the responsibility is on me.
then the front door i open close open close a few times. the key cannot go in leh.
wa scare sia.
then now i'm worried if i got locked the drawer well or the front door i got locked properly anot, then also afraid that the backdoor got locked properly anot. wad if ppl go into the shop, or..
then still afraid i got off all the electricity anot. wad if theres a power shockage. cause today the light of the shop will keep blinking for some time.

damm. i think i'm thinking too much. make myself worried for nothing.
but its other ppl shop la..must not let anything happen.
somemore the keys of the shop is with me.
still, i scare i might lost it.
cause i dun have the habit of bring keys out.
now i have to bring it with me.

man. school faster start la..
or at least got one ppl to stay in the shop with me ma.. so if anything happen.
ppl can vouch for me that we have locked everything and off anything.

omg. i have to learn to be independent.

INDEPENDENCE is wad i have to learn.

11:32 AM